Next week I turn 37. Honestly, I feel more like 27 than 37, but whoa! Where does the time go anymore? The older I get, the more I try hold on to each and every moment, but what happens, when I just can’t?!? Sometimes I feel like another trip around the sun, is a reminder of all the things, that I didn’t get to that year. You know, the “By this time next year…” goals, or the “this year I’m going to… ” or the New Year’s Resolutions that never happened. Instead of making this birthday feel more like I am letting life just slip by, I am going to remember how great this year was, and how this year will be even better.
If you’ve been following me for any amount of time, you’ve probably seen me use the hashtag #MakeYourMomentsCount . Its my mantra and has been since my mother passed away four years ago (I wrote an entire post on it, find it HERE) But even when I am constantly reminding myself to take in all of the moments, I find myself getting caught up on things that don’t matter.
Recently, I was reflecting on my past 37 years and I had an “Ah-Ha!” moment that got me a bit down. When I was younger, I had some pretty big dreams and over the years, I’ve let a lot of those dreams fade away. I got so caught up in the everyday, that the someday, didn’t take priority anymore. Over the past year or so, I have worked so hard to take those moments back and let go of the little stuff and focus on the big. But distractions so easily rear their ugly head and often times, it feels like I am back to square one.
This morning for example, I snapped at my husband for something that had nothing to do with him. Like nothing, like not even a little bit. I was frustrated with a situation and snapped. Now, I am far from perfect and everyone has moments like that. But sometimes I feel like I have too many. I feel like I have lost a little bit of my, #MakeYourMomentsCount mantra, and now I want it back!
Reflecting on my life thus far, has made me realize even more than before, that there is no time to waste anymore. So after my morning reflection (and quite a few deep breathes!) I vowed to make my 37th year on earth, my best one yet! I refuse to give things that don’t matter, any room to take up my moments. Sure, I still lose my shit and snap at my husband, but I am going to hold myself more accountable than ever.
I have dreams. Some of them are still the dreams I had when I was younger, and some of them are new dreams, but they are my dreams. And this is my life, to fill my moments, with my dreams. So over the course of the next week, I am going to compile a list of 37 things that I want to accomplish in the next year. Not all of them will be big, and most will be small. But this list will be a list of things that make me happy. Or things that get me closer to my dreams. That may be waking up at 5 am to go workout or take a spontaneous trip or stay in bed all day watching movies. But this will be my list. My list to remind myself of this life and all the beautiful moments that make it up.
I am also going to make a list of 37 things that I DID accomplish this year. To give myself some grace and to realize that maybe I haven’t reached some dreams I thought I would have by now, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t gotten closer. And to remind myself, what a great year this really was!
So cheers to year 37, I am ready for you! Lets make this the best trip around the sun, yet!